Whoever heard of a nice piece of elephant?

1. smugglers notch, VT.-aka where i am ;D lol

2. paris, france <3 AWESOME place

3. east brunswick, new jersey-no place like home

4. london, england-another great place

5. beach house, long island, NY-many great memories, but it seems like there won’t be many more :[

6. berlin, germany-where i’m going this summer! :D

1. to see all of europe…and maybe some other places too ;D

2. to get into any or all of these colleges-dartmouth, colby, amherst, cornell, tufts. 

3. to become a senator from mass….or at least somewhere in new england lol.

4. to go on an african safari (and see lions-that is a MUST haha. second fave animal right there)

5. autism is cured….and a bunch of other things, as i would love to save the world lol. but unfortunately, i cant-so thats my top pick :D

6. lose 10-20 lbs. (see CHALLENGE! Day 3-8 Fears)

7. take salsa/tango/ballroom dance classes :D

1. eddie attacking someone. my brother (who is autistic) can have violent fits. its rare, but it happens. im not scared of him attacking me or my parents because we’ve dealt with it in the past and we love him. however, im terrified he will attack anyone outside of the family. for one, they wont know how to handle him. and also, they will most likely sue. this is especially scary at buddy basketball, which we go to about every saturday morning. mornings are not eddie’s best time-its just that he’s tired and can be cranky. the people who run the program dont want me working with him because 1) im his sister and they say he needs to branch out and make new friends and 2) he attacked me once while we were there. i agree with #1, but #2 is just stupid. they only want him working with guys because they believe the guy buddies can handle him. well they CANT. this program does NOT teach the “normal kids” who are buddies that people with disabilities are not perfect angels who just happen to be different-they can be violent. these kids have NO idea what eddie is capable of. they have no idea how to really handle a child like edmond. buddy bball is supposed to be a place of serenity and companionship, a place where everyone understands a child’s disabilites-but its not,at least for me. its terrifying and stressful and i usually only go because eddie likes to play bball.

2. marriage and death. in the future, i plan to have edmond live with me. i love him, he’s my best friend. but beyond that, i dont think a group home would work with him and the thought of institutionalizing him is abhorrent. i do not fear living with eddie but i worry that if i ever decide to marry (which im not sure i will) that the guy wont be able to handle such a responsibility. my brother will always come first in my life, and i dont think a guy can handle that. i already have trust issues with guys-i dont know if i could count on one to put my brother’s care above any and everything else, like i do. death is scary to me 1) because its the unknown. duh lol. but 2) i NEED to live past eddie. as mentioned earlier, i cant totally trust anyone else to care for him. whats so horrifying about this is that i cant control when i die. i mean, i can take care of myself as well as possible but its not foolproof. also, if eddie does die before me, i know the grief will be terrible, but i have to live with it. (i said care way too much in this post and its bothering my CDO o.o lol)

3. my parents dying. i just know ill miss them a lot, and since my both of my parents are in terrible shape and have a lot of health problems, i fear this time will come way too soon.

4. making it into a good college. i have such high goals and i worry a lot about making them.

5. having the cops called when eddie has a fit in public. this has happened a lot in the past because my dad and i usually have to restrain him (which usually involves him lying on the floor and us pinning him down) if this happens. because we have to do this people often think we’re hurting him, which we’re not. they don’t know that though so often times people call the police. then there’s the added stress of having to explain to the cop, who may or may not understand.

6. being overweight. i LOVE my junk food lol. the problem is, im short. and when you’re short, you dont have much area for extra weight to go too ;P lol. so, i gain weight easily. i dont want to gain weight for vanity’s sake but also for other reasons (see #2 haha).

7. taffy (my dog) running away. she’s gotten out of the gate 3 times before and its usually only luck that i happen to see it and get her back (after a LOT of running, chasing, and yelling) lol.

8. does the fact that im afraid of bugs count? LOL i couldnt think of anything else XD

(sorry this is so long XD)

hahaxpalright:

wanderingalways:

superszabo:

is there any way to get people to stop following you? aka, people you dont know?….at all?

block them 

i love the timing of the post. around the same time she blocked me.

hrmph, and i thought she knew me since 1st grade. </3 what a delusion

xp too lazy to work this all out atm, i’ll leave it to her to figure out eventually (is that asking too much szabo?)

i didnt block you phil…?

1. CLASSIC disney lol.

2. playing sports/exercise in general. many of my friends know *cough katie m. and jackie cough* that its hard to get my butt off the couch to actually start doing something. when i do though, i love it and usually dont want to stop. exercise/playing sports is just so much fun and provides such a rush.

3. dancing/singing. i suck at it but i love it lol.

4. READING READING READING READING…did i say reading yet?

5. politics. enough said lol.

6. this is a contradiction. every now and then i love eating junk but i also love to eat healthy. you just feel better afterward, like with exercise.

7. traveling. im SO lucky to have such great opportunities to travel. i love to see new places and meet new people, experience new cultures.

8. taking a bubble bath after a long day <3

9. making people laugh. i love to laugh and it really feels great when i can return the favor.

wanderingalways:

superszabo:

is there any way to get people to stop following you? aka, people you dont know?….at all?

block them 

thank you manteleeeeee ^^

is there any way to get people to stop following you? aka, people you dont know?….at all?

1. when i wrote challenge i had a flashback to Lion King I when Mufasa screams at Scar, “IS THAT A CHALLENGE!??!”. (maybe ill post that clip after this ;D)

2. i cry… quite a bit lol. i cry when im happy, sad, angry, relieved. just depends how tired or emotional i am at that moment. however, you will hardly ever see my true feelings. i tend to hold emotions in. at school, you will rarely know if im upset unless i tell you.

3. going along with 2, i really try not to cry though because i’m afraid if i do…i wont stop.

4. i literally spent 5 minutes trying to decide if i should capitalize correctly or not in this post. i decided not to. XD lol

5. i have pretty much lost faith in humanity…especially guys lol.

6. i love playing dress up. after i buy new clothes i will spend an hour or so just modeling them haha. i love it, idk why.

7. i cant watch the commercials for the ASPCA, the children in third world countries, things like that. i just want to help them ALL and i CANT and it KILLS me lol.

8. i will spend days watching disney movies/singing disney songs.

9. i have a problem with envy. im getting over it because i dont like that part of me, but i still struggle with it sometimes.

10. i deal with grief through humor. im not sure if i like that trait of mine, its just the only way i know how. unfortunately, some people see it as malicious so i tend to keep my wise cracks to myself in those situations.